Sometimes, simply hearing that
someone else is feeling the same
way as you, brings comfort.
It reminds us that we aren't alone. That we are understood. Our beautiful MM team, have agreed to get vulnerable. To share each week, how they are feeling, how they are navigating these strange times. We hope that these little snippets of vulnerability can bring strength and solidarity. We are in this together.
Home for a lot of us may represent something or somewhere very different but it’s my hope that wherever home is, you’re with the people you love and care for.
For me, the reality of isolation has evolved as the weeks have gone by. I was so busy working to complete as much as possible before lockdown, that it was hard to imagine what it would look and feel like as time went by.
‘Busy-ness’ has always been something I have felt is a constant in this world. People are always ‘busy’. My friends, my family, my team. Busy lives, busy minds and busy thinking about the future. It's like being ‘busy’ is code for effective, successful and interesting. But now, as the world has hit pause, this constant, feels like a variable. Our busy minds, always thinking about the future have returned to the present and we have a chance to finally catch our breath.
This time has taught me that being ‘busy’ isn’t the same as being productive. I believe that sometimes ‘busy-ness’ can drive dynamic thinking and stimulate momentum however as a continual state of being it isn’t healthy or sustainable. I must also add that I thrive in fast-paced environments, but fast-paced doesn’t need to equal burnout. There is a lot of noise in the world that can easily take away from our focus on what's important both personally and professionally. However, as a principle moving forward I'm going to try to maintain clarity on what’s important, be less ‘busy’ and more productive.
As an extrovert, I have definitely missed the pace and communication I’m accustomed to in my everyday life. But, although distanced, I haven’t felt less connected. I have cherished the time it’s given me to speak with my friends and family. There is a sense of greater care, love and connection between calls and messages. Whether it’s a call, text, email, whatsapp or zoom meeting (how did 40 mins go so quickly..), time seems to be less of the essence and connection the priority.
As a result of isolation I’ve been pleasantly surprised to find myself doing things I normally wouldn’t enjoy doing because, well, I was too busy… My isolation bubble is my boyfriend Liam and I. Liam is an ex-world champion runner & the most disciplined person I know both physically and mentally. So, after a week of using every excuse imaginable, I found myself giving in to his encouragement (he’s been ‘encouraging’ me for over a year..) and putting one foot in front of the other... at a faster pace than what I had been practising in going to and from to the fridge... But, I’m happy to say (although I’d never admit it to him of course) that running has become a pillar of happiness in my day - a chance to get out and just be at one with my mind and body. I’ve gotten to know my neighbourhood in a whole new way, discovered the local parks, and said ‘hi’ ( at a distance) to many. I love this new silent communication that’s emerged from a feeling of solidarity - that little look or nod of encouragement as you pass someone by. While running, I find my mind clears away the usual thoughts that clamber for my time and demand solutions. As a result, I have discovered a new level of creative thinking and focus. Running has become my mediation (something else I might need to consider to balance out the busyness) as we get ready to return to a new normal, whatever that means.
On Easter Friday, Liam and I also celebrated our anniversary. We made a beautiful dinner and drank wine. It may not have been the magical get away we’d had in mind but you know what - it was perfect. The magic is in the simplicity of togetherness.
For me, it's the small things I miss the most and the big things that I’m most grateful for. I miss hugs from my girlfriends, morning coffees from Little and Friday and laughing with the MM team (my second family). I feel grateful for my family, friends, health and job. Like many of you, I’ve seen people I love and admire lose their jobs and face uncertainty. If anything, this time has taught me that it is about keeping life simple. That it’s about going at your own pace, realising that there is no one right way and that the key ingredients for happiness are always right in front of us.